Monday, January 30, 2012
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Becoming you.
As much as you and I would like to believe, we are not individuals. We don’t stand on our own two feet, but rather, we are interconnected to a greater web of dependance than we realise. Love nurtures us in to who we are, and friendships bind us in to a greater destiny, to reach the full potential of who we can be. Friendships, love and creativity, those are the single most important aspects of individuality.
Love is a strange one. I keep thinking I know what it is, or that I’ve come to realise the full potential of what it can be. But then events follow that lead me to reevaluate the very premise of what I initially believed. Today I stand before you as a man, who loves a woman. She is the single most import aspect of my being. And there isn’t any lengths that I would not go to for her. I don’t know what tomorrow holds, but if the past six years have taught me anything, it’s that love can fluctuate like a beating heart. And sometimes it can stop beating altogether. It can seem like it’s still. Dead. But love is immortal, so it can revive itself from a perceived death. It can flourish again like a tree that has failed to bear flowers or fruit for decades. It’s inexplicable. But it is, what it is. I love her more than I could put into words. As cliched as it sounds, as the lyrics of my favourite song say, “I really like what you’ve done to me, I can’t really explain it”. In a nutshell though she… Is the single most important aspect of who I am as an individual. She is the love of my life and one day she will be the mother of my children.
In life there are few friends who you can call true friends. I am privileged to far too many to list how they construct the fibres of my being. Friends are however as vital to individual strength as water is to all life. They give us borrowed strength and push us to our limits, sometimes even far beyond. They help us realise who and what we want. We support each other, cry on one another’s shoulders and help piece the fragmented pieces of our lives together, when everything we know falls apart. If nothing else friendships prevail over most things. Sometimes friendships can be more stable than love. But it’s because they are built with an entirely different kind of love that they display a stronger density. Love can be weakened by passion. The kind of love that underpins friendship is built upon trust and caring. That it what makes it so resilient to beatings.
Creativity is something I value immensely. Tumblr has been an amazing platform for the form my creativity likes to take most of all. The form of words. Words. Simple things, but ultimately they help me grasp a greater understanding of myself. Sometimes it’s difficult to speak to yourself. To tell yourself things you know are hard to hear. But when I write them down and read them back it becomes all the more easier to swallow. Tumblr has shown me that I can do things with words I didn’t know I could. That few can do, as I do, the way I do. By that I don’t mean that I can write better than anyone else, but rather what I write and how I write takes my own voice. It acts like a fingerprint. The way I articulate myself through words is unique to me. It gives oneself an aspect of individuality. To end, I must take this opportunity to thank everyone who has read these thoughts. You’ve influenced the person I am, and who I am becoming.
So you see being an individual is not about standing on your own feet. It’s about being a part of something greater. Something you can’t quite begin to explain. It’s an entire ecosystem of relationships fostered through love and friendships. Materialised by creativity that give us a sense of who we are. Take not for granted how these pieces build you up to stand tall. To set you out on a path that will lead to greatness of some degree.
Huwag kang magalit kung nagseselos ang isang tao sa kahit kaunting bagay lamang.
Buti nga may natatakot na mawala ka at iwan mo siya kesa naman sa taong wala na ngang pakialam, hindi pa nakakaramdam.
Minsan huwag maniwala sa taong nagsasabing hindi ka iiwan.
Dahil sa panahon ngayon TANGHALI na lang ang TAPAT.
Mahal kasi kita...
SIYA: ma, pag may reunion ulit ung barkada ko this year pwede din ba akong sumama? 20 kami lahat lahat dun. Partner partner un. payag ka ba?
AKO: ikaw? Ok lang.
SIYA: syempre di ako sasama. Si karen ung makaksama ko dun eh. Mandatory kasi ung pagsasama na un di tulad ng inyo. Mababalik ung asal namin nung kami pa. Pag ganun. di na lang ako sasama.
MAHAL KASI KITA.
AKO: :"> wag ka nge!!!!!~
"We may not stop all the evil in the world, But I know that how we treat one another is entirely up to us."
I Love You Ruel Tiburcio. :*
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Monday, January 16, 2012
‘Yung feeling na mapa-ibig mo ang taong minamahal mo.
Isa ito sa mga pinakamahirap na gawin pero isa naman sa mga pinakamasarap.
If you ask me how much I love you, I won’t say anything.
I’ll just take your hand and fill the gaps between your fingers then hold you until all your doubts are gone.
Hindi ka lagi makakahanap ng taong ginagawa ang lahat maging masaya ka lang,
Learn to appreciate. Tandaan mo, napapagod din ang tao.
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Ang taong nagpapasaya sa buhay ko ngayon…
Ang tanging taong nagbibigay ng dahilan nang hindi ko pagsuko. I love you Ruel. :*
ung feeling na nakikipagunahan siya....
mauna lang sa pagbati sa monthsary niyo.. AAAWWW!!~~ SWEET :">
before I kiss 2011, goodbye....
I just wanted to post things I never got a chance to reveal.
Nasasakatan pa din ako tuwing nadudulas ka sa pagsabi ng "KAREN" tuwing magkasama tayo.
Bakit?
Syempre, mahal kita. Syempre, tayo kasi at hindi kayo. Syempre, akin ka na at hindi na sa kanya. Syempre, ako na ung kaharap mo at hindi siya.
Masakit kasing isipin na ako na nga ung kasama at kaharap mo pero ung utak mo andudun pa din kapiling ng "KAREN" na un? Sakit diba? Pero dahil nga sa mahal kita nagiging ok lang sakin un. Dahil mahal kita, di ko na pinakikinggan un. Dahil mahal kita, di ko na iniintindi un. At dahil nga sa mahal kita, binabalewala ko na lang un. Mahal nga kasi kita kaya ayokong mawala ka, ayokong wala ka at ayokong mawawala ka. Ilang "GROW OLD WITH YOU" man ung katahin mo sa paalala sa kanya, mahal na mahal pa din kita. Titigil lang ako sa insanity ko sayo, kung sakaling dumating ung panahon na hinggin mo na sakin ung kalayaan mo.
Di ko magawang sabihin sayo to in person kasi ayokong maging cause to ng misunderstanding natin. Gusto ko nang iwan ang issue na to kasama sa paglipas ng 2011 sa buhay ko. I want a new start with the same you. And I want to thank you for spending your christmas and new year with me. Sobrang naging memorable tong nagdaang pasko at bagong taon na to sakin. Ikaw kasi ung kauna-unahang lalaki na inakyat ko at pinakilala sa bahay namin and ikaw din ang kauna-unahang nobyo ko na nakasama ko ng pasko't bagong taon sa bahay ko.
Ito na sana ang maging simula ng magandang pagsasama natin at pagpapatuloy ng pagiibigan na walang hanggan.WOW AH~ HAHAHA! Seriously speaking, totoo ung sinabi ko.
Pero AL, thank you so much for everything you've given me. Mula sa material things hanggang sa di na nakikita ng mata kundi nadarama ng puso. Ung loyalty mo na hanggang ngayon damang-dama ko pa. Ung love na di nawawala. THANK YOU! I am so damn lucky for having you in my life. Ikaw na! The best ka nga eh.
Bago ko makalimutan ang lahat ito lang talaga ung dapat na malaman mo......
Ilang "KAREN" man ang marinig ko sayo, mahal pa din kita mamahalin pa din kita at mamahalin at mamahalin pa din kita. Dahil si "KAREN" na laging laman ng utak mo ay parte pa rin ng nakaraan mo, na kasamang minahal ko sayo. Di naman kita minamadali na iwaksi siya sa isip mo. Di ko rin pinamumuka sayo na ang unfair mo. At di naman kita pinipilit tanggalin siya sa buhay mo magiintay at magiintay pa rin ako sa tamang panahon kung saan akin ka na ng buo at wala na akong kahati sayo. At patuloy pa rin akong magiintay sa panahon na malimutan mo na siya ng buong-buo. Honestly, kaya kong magpagamit sayo makalimutan mo lang ang taong labis kong kinaiinggitan, si KAREN. Di man niya nakita ung kaswertehan niya sa piling mo alam ko naman na nadama niya ung pagmamahal mo ung panahon na naging kayo. At kung dumating man ung panahon na bumalik siya, payag naman akong sumama ka sakanya at maiwan akong nagiisa. I'm not that selfish to free you pag alam ko naman na dun ka at sa kanya ka talaga magiging masaya. Gusto ko lang na ipangako niya sakin na mamahalin ka niya, wag ka niyang sasaktan at higit sa lahat wag ka na niyang iiwan pa. Dahil kung ganun lang naman, babawiin at babawiin kita sa kanya. This is how much I love you. Alam ko naman na alam mo un. I constantly remind you of how much you really mean to me. Your my life now. Kaya nga nasabi ko sayo dati, di ko na alam ung mararamdaman ko pag dumating man ung araw na mawala ka sa buhay ko. Kumbaga isa kang napakaimportanteng pundasyon ng mundo ko. And I pray to God na sana di ka mawala, na di ka magbago at hindi ka magsawa. Its really my passion to love you every minute of the day. This is not insanity my dear, it's love. At kung meron man akong nagawang mali, un ay ang di na ako nagtira pa para sa sarili ko. Ayoko lang magmahal ng kulang, gusto ko buo, apaw-apaw at sagad-sagad to.
I love you Ruel. You mean everything to me. Happy Birthday too.
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